My Escapade.

Why on earth must there be computers and the internet? SO IRRITATING. I didn’t go to school today. And my teacher emailed all of us and asked us to complete his homework. How can i pretend not to see it. It’s a little impossible right. ): I don’t want homework. I hate business. But all the teachers tell us that our Business teacher is super fierce. ):

I went to see the doctor just now. I had fever, migraine and this stupid cough which refuses to leave me after so longggggggggggggggggg. Irritating. But Sissy said she will bring me for orh ah jian tomorrow! Yay!

Bball yesterday and it was super duper tiring. I haven’t been exercising for such a long time. Furthermore, we played under the hot sun. ):

Still thinking whether to go school tomorrow. Hope i’ll be sick so i can skip school again!

OHOH, i heard that we’ve gotten our ez link card. I bet mine looks like pang sai. But nevermind! It means cheaper transport now!

I’m tired. Gotto go bed! Nighty!

I forgot to say something. The other time, i was late for sch(AGAIN!!) but, i didn’t want to cab there because, it’s damn ex. So i took a train and guess who i met?!

TAN LIJIE THE WATERMELON!

That idiot, haven’t seen her for.. months.

She was going to Lakeside, so just nice! We took the same train! Managed to chat a little.

I was late! But i met my old friend. It feels good! I don’t mind being late once in a while to be able to meet her in the train. (:

My school has this wei rule. if you’re late or absent without any mc for more than 3 times. OUT YOU GO~~~~~~~~ Scary.

Ahhhhhh, why am i feeling down again.

No one is going to care for you. So stop crying.

I’m over at Kangde’s place with Jo now. Something really scary happened! No, no ghosts, no monsters or scary creatures. But we were making too much noise until the man living right below came up banging the door. We were super scare okay! Okay, maybe only me. But, the way he bang the door was freaky. ): I feel so bad.

I met Jo and Kangde to town just now. Walked walked walked. Rot. Played arcade. Talking about arcade. We spent ALOT on the machine used to catch soft toy but we caught nothing. ): I was super sad okay! I wanted the soft toy damn much. I don’t care, in future, i’m going to bring my bf(whoever it is) there and make sure he catches one for me! If not i’ll break up with him. :X Haha. K lah, joking.

I’m meeting Mao and Kangde for basketball session tomorrow! YIPEE! TIme to burn off some tummy fats. My eyes is getting really blur now.

I REALLY WANT THAT SOFT TOY! ): I wanna hug something else. I don’t want CJ7 anymore. ):

I want a new future!

Because a memory will always be a memory. :’(

Today is oppa’s birthday. He’s going to Zouk and he asked me along. I’m not very into trance music. MIght reconsider if it was Phuture. But i’m very afraid of disappointing oppa if i say i’m not going.

I’m not in my best of mood to go party today. But at the same time, i do not wish to stay at home facing all four walls and keep thinking.

Haven’t been feeling very well these few days. Tummy’s been aching although it’s not the time of the month. The headache i’m having is enough to kill me already. I just woke up from a nap feeling feverish.

Mom and sister isn’t home.

I was talking about the singing audition yesterday right? I was the first one! I will only get to know the results on Wednesday. Scary. ):

I told you i never wanted to leave you. You smiled and held me in your arms. I happily drifted in a deep slumber. But then, i forget. You never told you that you’ll never leave me. And now you did.

What do you actually want? You said, forget you and give up. You said you’ve already gotten over me. And the very next minute, you told me you still love me. What is this? I see you moving on, i see myself trying so hard to go move on. In the end, i’m still stuck with this stupid shit i’m in.

You told me to move on, to get over you. I said okay. And you told me you didn’t want things to turn out like that. Than what do you really want?

Those tears. If only it could stop..

I don’t know why it hurts so badly. It’s always this neverending cycle. It’s always so hurting.

Because those words, just pierced through the small little heart of mine.

Why am i still stuck here. Shouldn’t i be moving forward.

Your love for me.. isn’t great enough compared to the other things.

My love for you, is enough to drive me crazy.

My back is aching like shit. I’ve been in the lab for 5 hours facing a stupid computer, typing the whole time. I’m dying. I wasn’t feeling well today. Intially, i didn’t want to go school because mao isn’t going and i really don’t feel well. But i still went okay! I didn’t want to skip any lessons.

I hugged CJ7 to bed last night.

I’m having a singing audition tomorrow and i’ve got no idea what to sing!

I’m feeling rather down now. Aren’t you tired? You’ve been running through my mind like a million times today. It’s time to rest your leg. It’s time, to let me rest this stupid brain of mine!

I wonder if it’s because i’ve went to places we always go together and done things that reminds me of you. I realised i miss you more. I always wanted to be realistic and stop hurting myself by doing what i always do. They always say, “Now you got your cute guy to go crazy over, it’s time to forget him!” Yea, how i wish it was that easy. =/ Cute and muscular guys only make me go crazy, but you drive me outta my mind. You don’t only make me go crazy, you.. nevermind. ):

How have you been doing? Trying very hard to get me outta your mind? Or am i already outta it? Have you been thinking of me? Cause i am. It’s really torturing. We drove pass a soccer court, and i thought of you. I caught CJ7, i thought of you. I went East Coast, i remembered everything. They talked about relationship, i thought about us.

Will you ever get to see this post?

Hi CJ7, can you please use your power to make me happier? ):

I was late for school. So i cabbed to school. AND IT COST A FREAKING $23.70! ): I swear i will never cab to school ever again. On the way to school, there’s this stupid accident which caused the cab i am in to make a hugeeeeee detour. $$$ Stupidddddd.

School’s alright. I better learn to be more lady-like because Mao will end up getting all bruised, which he claimed that he turned out to be realllllllly colourful. haha.

I met up with Jo for dinner after school today. Met up with onyi and chris to makan at East Coast. It’s been a long time since i’d last been there. It brings back lots of memories. The good, the bad. The start of a relationship. I even caught a cute CJ7 using $2. (: CJ7 brings back memories too. I went to watch it wih someone i really love on Valentines Day. I even ended up crying so badly on his shoulders cause the damn show was so touching. Silly, really silly.

School at 10am later and it’s 2am. I got to wake up at 7.30am. ): Which means, 5 hours of sleep if i go to bed now(which is impossible).

Oppa is currently outfield. No one to talk to cause i’m feeling really troubled.Im turning out to be really dependent on him now.

I’m fighting back my urge. I miss you so.. It’s torturing me. It’s so hard to supress all this feelings i’m feeling in me. Don’t you need me anymore. Am i really outta your life?

I’m still feeling tired after my sleeping marathon of 14 hours last night. I’m really turning into a lazy bum. I’m even lazy to talk! My eyes are shutting, again.

But i don’t feel like sleeping.

The other time i was at Jurong East Station waiting for Jo, oppa sms-ed me and said, “you looked like you’re very cold.” I started turning around, looking for that guy but i couldn’t find him cause the trains was flooded with people. Than i said, “idiot, where are you?!” I bet he was laughing behind his hp screen. ):

In the end, i saw this cute little army boy(:X) in the midst of the huge crowd laughing. -.-

And why is everyone telling me that i look like a nurse. ):

I’m going prawning instead of fishing. I try to take lotsa pictures okay?